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2002-11-14

Thoughts Back

Scary, strange, wonderful all at the same time.

Wondering what is to become of my feelings.

Mixed emotions about it all.

Concentrating on the thoughts at hand seems hard because of distractions all around.

Frustration, aggravation, stress from one source gets me down.

Thoughts back to those few stolen moments, makes my heart leap.

Secret thoughts of an embrace perhaps even a fulfillment of the wish I wanted most.

My fingers can only touch what my lips can't.

A chance encounter, but worth the risk.

My nerves are rattled.

My rope is stretched as far as it can reach.

Added weights from all sides weigh me down.

Tears fill my eyes.

Emotions that need a release.

Walls closing in all around me.

No tranquility to be found.

Thoughts back to that day I found relief.

A stroke sent chills that comforted me.

A sight for aching eyes.

I close my eyes and I see the image.

Alas, that only makes me hope for more of the same.

Me against the world.

One lone girl against the masses.

Overwhelmed by it all.

Ready to give up.

I wanted to scream and tell it all

But that would leave my feelings exposed and vulnerable.

But it's safe locked inside.

I want to say, but I still can't say what I feel.

Thoughts back to a moment of attentiveness

Lets me know that it's okay, whatever I reveal.

There's that irritant yet again.

An interruption of the blissful thoughts back

That were shared even if I only dreamed it all.

Having these thoughts back makes it worthwhile.